wow i love your essay...
i am in my first year of game design rn and we just started to learn unity, although i am only getting to know the engine i can already see what you are writing about.
i am mainly using godot to make my games and i wonder how far i can get with it. i want to get very far and in the meantime try to reject professionalism at all costs. it's a bigger beast than i would have thought but i won't back down. thank you so much for this! it helps to keep going!!